"Oh, no," Zoe said. "We have been here four minutes."
"I'm looking."
"You are doing the face. The 'this could solve a problem' face. You do it at suits and at real estate."
"Try being a woman whose problems can be solved by tailoring before you judge me."
A sales associate approached β young, fair, with her hair in a low knot and a name badge that read EMILY. Emily Ross smiled with the practiced ease of someone good at strangers. "Can I help you find anything?"
"My daughter needs a dress for a school formal," Alicia said. "Blue. And I am β apparently β trying on a suit I do not need."
"The best kind to try," Emily said, entirely straight-faced, and Zoe laughed aloud. "Suits are this way. Let me pull your size. Eight? Ten?"
"Eight in the jacket, ten in the trouser, if the cut is honest."
"It is. This designer actually believes women have hips. I'll start a fitting room for you both β the larger one at the end has two mirrors, so you can consult." She glanced at Zoe. "And for the formal β what kind of blue are we hunting?"
"Ocean," Zoe said. "Deep. No sparkle falling off. Nothing bridesmaid."
"Understood. We have a crepe column dress that came in Thursday, and a satin one with a proper back. I'll bring both to the room when you're ready." Emily gathered the graphite suit with the reverence good clothes deserve. "Take your time browsing. I'll find you."
She was gone with a soft click of heels, and Zoe leaned in. "I like her. She gets us."
"She is well trained," Alicia said, with more pride than she intended to show.
She tried the suit first, because discipline reasserts itself in strange orders. In the fitting room β walnut-paneled, lit like late afternoon, with a cushioned bench and hooks of brushed brass β she stepped into the trousers and felt the small, private pleasure of a garment made by someone who cared. The jacket settled. In the mirror, a woman looked back who seemed to have her life arranged: shoulders square, jaw calm, grief and ambition both pressed neatly out of sight.
Forty-four, the mirror said. Forty-five, Alicia corrected. It did not matter. The suit was right, and they both knew it.
"You look like you could acquire a company in that," Zoe said from the doorway, where she had been summoned for judgment. "Buy it. Then dress time. My dress time. Priority time."
Alicia changed back into her own clothes slowly. She hung the suit on its hook with care, straightened its lapel, and β on an impulse she would remember β left her tote on the bench beside her folded blouse while she stepped out to look at evening wear with Zoe. It was the kind of small, trusting untidiness she never permitted herself anywhere else. The store was hers. The room had a door. She would be twenty paces away.
Twenty paces was a country.
Evening wear received Zoe like a tide. She moved down the rank of dresses touching nothing at first β a discipline she could only have learned at home β then everything at once. The crepe dress Emily had promised was indeed ocean: a column of deep blue that would move like water when a girl walked. The satin one had a back that dipped with intent.
"That one," Zoe whispered. "Mom. That is a back that enters a room before I do."
"Try the crepe first. Satin's back can negotiate later."
They gathered sizes. Alicia, holding two dresses over one arm, reached for a third on a higher rail β a darker blue, almost midnight, with sleeves of sheer fabric β standing on the flat of her feet, then on her toes, the way any woman does in any store on earth. The hanger resisted, then gave.
Behind her, at the end of the aisle, a woman had stopped browsing.
Alicia did not notice. She was looking at her daughter, who was holding midnight blue against herself in a mirror, lit and seventeen and so full of the future that Alicia's chest hurt in the old, sweet place.
"Okay," Zoe said. "Now forty minutes makes sense. We only needed one perfect dress."
Alicia laughed, and the sound carried a little farther than she knew, down the hushed aisle to where it was heard β and judged β by someone who had already decided what kind of woman made a sound like that in a place like this.
Chapter 4: The Watcher
Deborah Lawson had come to Harlow & Vine to be restored.
That was her word for it β restored β and she used it the way other women used lunch. At fifty-five, with a husband in commercial real estate, a house that appeared in a charity tour booklet, and a seat at the head of the St. Anne's Hospital benefit committee for the third consecutive year, Deborah's life ran on being correctly perceived. This morning a younger committee member β thirty-eight, with opinions β had questioned Deborah's seating plan in front of the florist. In front of the florist. So Deborah had driven downtown, parked where she always parked, and entered the store where the staff knew her name, her size, her preferred dressing room, and the exact degree of flattery that repaired her.
She bought nothing yet. Restoration began with being seen to browse.
She was examining a cream evening jacket on the second floor, holding it at arm's length to admire how it would photograph, when the laugh reached her.
It was not a loud laugh. That was what she would say later, and it was true, and it was beside the point. It was a free laugh β unguarded, at ease β and Deborah Lawson did not trust ease in strangers. Ease meant people who felt entitled to a room. She turned.
The woman stood halfway down the evening wear aisle, dresses draped over one arm, reaching for another on the high rail. Tall. Black. Hair in a neat, low style, no jewelry to speak of, clothes that Deborah's eye β and Deborah's eye was, she believed, an instrument of rare accuracy β assessed in one sweep: well made, understated, possibly expensive, possibly very good imitation. There was a teenage girl beside her holding a blue dress against herself in the mirror, glowing the way girls do when no one has taught them yet that the world is watching to correct them.